i woke up at 7am today.
isn't it incredibly early?
LOL!

was out with cousin yesterday again.
reason being; she came pick me up from TPY since she's was at hougang
aftermath we headed back to pick her bf up before going back to my cousin place

as usual, gambling session.

plan for today was suppose to go into JB with cousin & her bf.
but i fucking lost my passport lah..
snort..
was searching high and low for my passport
& i seriously have no idea where i place my passport.
ARGHHH...

i gave up after hours of searching
hence i got to wake up early to go ICA with dad to make a new passport
and it's not cheap ok!
fucking 130bucks lor...
chee bye expensive right?

i'm glad i need not pay for the fee lor..
LOL!


guess what, i think i threw my passport away while cleaning up my room a couple of weeks ago!
i think..
IF NOT HOW CAN IT GO MISSING SIA??
hmmm...


:))

i turn away from stress.
that's the reason to everything
i've always felt something was wrong be it with dear M or dear W
i don't feel as happy as when i'm with motive gang or other friend of mine
maybe it's because there's something i know i could never say or do
there's always something that is restraining me from being myself

shouldn't i be happy instead of feeling so restrain??
i really don't understand.
shouldn't a friend or lover be the person you could turn to?
instead they are the one you can't share your problems with
ain't there a big problem in the picture?


sigh.


was out with my cousin the whole of saturday
since i love to eat chicken rice so much..
cousin & her boyfriend brought me to upper thomson for lunch
the chicken was fantastic.
in total 3 of us had one whole chicken!
i think what made the chicken taste so good is because the meat is very tender
slurp slurp..
& the meal was on cousin.

after lunch, cousin bf went to play billiard at TPY while i and her went walking around TPY
i'm selling my KS20 soon!
thus i'm searching for a shop that would buy my phone at a high price
and a shop is offering me 170bucks lor!
:))

next up, we went over to my cousin's worker chalet at pasir ris.
it was her 21st birthday chalet
before we went in to her chalet, she got us 4 complimentary tickets to escape theme park.
and the good thing is we need not pay for it plus we got another 4 free tickets upon exiting

it has been age since i went last escape lah.
however most of the game wasn't open
thus we didn't manage to play much.
but the gold-kart was really fun!
cousin bf & me was like racing throughout the 2 lap
nevertheless we kept trying hard to bang and overtake each other
it was real fun!
&&& they are planning to go Wild Wild Wet with cousin's children next weekend
i'm gonna be so broke.

when was the last time i really did enjoy myself?
answer: months ago!

hang over at the chalet till 9plus and we headed back home
cousin drop me off at home for me to shower before heading to her place for mahjong
it was damn tiring when i got home but they still wanna mahjong
snort..

it was a long yet fun day.
:)))

had mahjong session with gang & cousin earlier on
played only 1 round of mahjong before switching to cards game.
it's just not my day.
lost 12bucks on mahjong
lost 25bucks on cards game
yeah! that made me the big loser today
tsk tsk...

was chatting with my cousin on the phone before we met up
i guess it was the longest duration ever we did chat on the phone.
it is really amazing that we still have so many things to talk about
during the past few months she's always busy with her own business
thus we drifted apart.

back when i was in primary school, she would always bring me out with her boyfriend.
i need not bring cash out with me at all loh.
she would help me pay my transport, my meals, and even give me money to arcade.
come to think of it, she was really nice.
and guess what.. she's 7years older than me
well.. i sense no age gap.

imagine while mahjong-ing.. she could argue with vincent through out!
that really shows she can blend into us easily.

:))


dear M
put things down and move on.
then you will find your own happiness.
i love you, my friend.

dear W
sorry & sorry & sorry.
i never meant to ignore you
but i just didn't know how to make things right anymore.



:)

do you like your life?
it was asked by one of my friend.
without hesitating i replied; yes, i do love my life.
who don't, right?

learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all
Cheers man.

on a side note.
i'm leaving singapore to my dad's hometown from april 2 - april 4
and i'm so not excited about it at all.
BOOOO!


Miley Cyrus
The Climb

WOOHOO~
i'm so happy!
my final result is out.
though it wasn't as good as what i had expected
but at the very least i know i cleared everything
and i'm attending the graduation ceremony at school with all my friends!
:))

went sentosa today.
this time round i manage to get myself burn
the sun was great!
all 4 of us were like lobster after the suntan.
that's so cool right?
yeah, i know.


i can't differentiate between my needs & my wants
DAMN IT!

i felt so bad
i did something that i would regret for the rest of my life
but i'm just so unsure of myself right now
i miss you yet i chose not to reply
i love you yet i choose to walk away

i felt that i'm losing another important person in my life
this feeling has not been here for a very long time
but this feeling reappear last night
how i wish you knew what i was thinking over the night
how i wish you didn't drop me that goodbye message
how i also wish everything was just a dream

if i were got to forget you
i believe it would take a year to forget a day spent with you

explanation you have heard alot from me
but this time round i'm not going to say a word
i'm tired.
i just didn't know what else i could do
that's the reason why i chose to walk away from all the problems

you have really been so nice and good to me
i must be so fortunate to have you
however all good things must come to an end
what left behind from you is memories and a deep scar in my heart

what else could i say now?
i'm sad?
i'm unhappy?

sigh...


莫文蔚&张洪量
广岛之恋

:(

i was hinder by some unnecessary problem recently
once we were so close and it suddenly got cut off
and after so many months of not constantly contacting
a phone call changed everything

no doubt at first i was wondering why.
as it was as true as it is, i think everyone has their own reason for doing some things
but well.. it would be purely friendship this time round
what had happen in the past are all memories
it was a great determination to make this decision
perhaps too many things had happen in between us over the years
but i guess to make this friendship possible, one of us should draw the line

i'm exhausted with all the love i had
i need some time to be alone

over the years, i've been blind by love.
i hardly spend time with family when i'm in a relationship
but ever since the previous one i had, i had spent most of my time with friends & family.
true enough, everyone need love.
but if i were to have someone just for the sake of having, i rather have nothing.

nevertheless i'm happy with my free and easy style.
i spend what i have
i idl around like nobody business
i play around with no restriction
i laze with no stress
i sleep without thinking if i should sleep on the left or the right.
i meet whoever i like, be it girls or guys.

yeah.

come to think of it, i should be glad that i could live without anyone
okay. i did live for another person in the past
but no longer at all.

perhaps by doing this post, i've already make things clear for anyone
i love you my friend
:))


on a side track.
results would be out in 5 days time

there goes my weekend.
HAHAHA!
oh please, everyday seems like a weekend to me
and i'm enjoying it a lot.

my rashes has been an irritation to me over the past few days
i would get woke up by the itchiness
can you like imagine the patch of rashes over the hand?
it is really getting from bad to worst
and the worst part is my appointment to the skin centre is set on May
tsk tsk...


The All-Amercican Rejects
Gives you hell

p/s: to have, but not to hold

met up with lip shun today at orchard
accompanied him down to cineleisure's supercut
i wonder how often do he get a hair cut
the last time i remember him getting his hair done was on the last day of examination
and it is hardly a month or so and he's visiting the salon again.
anyway he's rich, so i shouldn't care much.

it's going to be a month every since i graduate
but i still have not gotten myself a job lah!
tsk tsk..
have been sending resume for the past 1 week or so
but i doubt i would be call up
the economic now is terrible!
even fresh graduates would have hard time looking for job
so i guess i wouldn't be able to get a temp job at this time

well well, perhaps i should just wait till my cousin gets me a job
and for the time being, i shall just slack!
:))

no other intention
:))

Taylor Swift
Love Story