Wednesday, May 09, 2007

i've decided to quit smoking! LOL. ALRIGHT~ dun laugh at me! i really mean i wanna quit.. yeah~ had my last stick at the morning. i'm really suffering now. i just feel like smoking now!!!! argh.. but frankly speaking, when people know i'm quitting smoking they all really encourage except for some BITCH!

*you should know who you are! boey met ting agnes*

yeah~ i hope i can really quit smoking!!! any comments on what i should do to get myself out of smoking life??? i really need help from everyone!!! wahhahaha.. LOL.. desperate to quit smoking. it's either quit or smoke! yeah~

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

finally i have decided to put a big FULL STOP in this rls. like what you said, good time don't last long for us. i never thought of using break to solve problem. but this time, the reason i said break was because i really can't tolerate anymore. you envy me that i could let it go that easily. but do you know how many times we had quarrel? after the last quarrel u wrote me a letter saying you will control your temper and try not to show un-neccessary attitude. but have you done what you had said? maybe you did but i didnt realise but maybe letting you go free you would be much more happier. i'm sorry for hurting you. i've never thought of hurting you but to shower tons of love to you. maybe we are fated to meet, but not fated to last.

take good care. work hard, rest well and don't always skip meal!!! you are thin enough!
finally i have decided to put a big FULL STOP in this rls. like what you said, good time don't last long for us. i never thought of using break to solve problem. but this time, the reason i said break was because i really can't tolerate anymore. you envy me that i could let it go that easily. but do you know how many times we had quarrel? after the last quarrel u wrote me a letter saying you will control your temper and try not to show un-neccessary attitude. but have you done what you had said? maybe you did but i didnt realise but maybe letting you go free you would be much more happier. i'm sorry for hurting you. i've never thought of hurting you but to shower tons of love to you. maybe we are fated to meet, but not fated to last.

take good care. work hard, rest well and don't always skip meal!!! you are thin enough!

Monday, May 07, 2007

你问在我心中 是否还苦恼
那次受伤 否决了爱的好
谢谢你的关照 我一切都好
一个人 不算困扰

那次流过的泪 让我学习到
如何祝福 如何转身不要
在眼泪体会到 与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要 是一种对照

爱虽然很美妙 却不能为了寂寞
又陷了泥沼

爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手 等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上 一定会遇到
对的人出现(在眼角)

能愿意为了一份爱付出去多少
然后得到多少并不计较
当我想清楚的时候
我就算已经准备好
放手去爱 海阔天高
喔~~~ ~~~ ~~~ 耶~~~

Thursday, May 03, 2007

people are just so damn childish~

SOME PEOPLE THINKS THEY ARE VERY MATURE, BUT INDEED ALL OF THEM JUST HAVE FUCKING ATTITUDE! SO BE IT. I WON'T GIVE IT A DAMM ANYMORE.

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

went to look for deardear at her workplace today. accompany her for lunch at far east... LOL.. after lunch headed back home. LOL. on the way home i suddenly feel like blogging. blogging things which i think deardear should know. my feeling towards our rls.

here it goes!

i still remember the first time we chatted, you were very sad.. u just ended your rls with ur ex-bf not long ago.. i never thought we would be together or what at that point of time. anyway thats not the main point of this msg. then one day, we met up at woodland. my first impression of you was you don't look like a typical malay. somehow or rather i find u very interesting so we started to sms and chat on phone.. eventually we met up!

my love for you had grown after our 2nd date. then i'm sure that i have fallen in love with u but i am uncertain about you. i finally speak out and ask you if you do have the same feeling as me or i'm just thinking too much. and your reply really brought me back to love once again. on our 3rd date, i decide to ask you to be my gf but u were late and i waited for you at lot 1 for 3hrs.. damn it! LOL. was worried that u wont be able to turn up. after you reached, we went to jurong entertainment but we were not about to skate due to that stupid competition. so instead we went to imm. had your fav food.. after that blablabla.. you should know la.. =D

our love offically began on 26th march. things are not very good at the beginning of our rls. we started quarrelling in less then a week. at that point of time, i am going to genting too. then things get worsen after i came back from genting. you saw things that u wouldnt want to see. but wadever it is, when i'm at genting, i kept thinking would we really last or we will break up after i return from genting.. at genting, i was thinking whether do you really love me or you're just playing with me. i'm confuse. but after i return back to singapore. you explain every single thing to me, i finally get to know how much love u had put in this rls. but not long after that quarrel, we started quarelling again. and at that point of time, it's dar who helped us to solve the problem.

both of us has bad attitude and won't give in to each other until things are very very worst. during quarrelling i know i had said alot of things that really hurt your heart but deep inside i swear it is angry words only. i am sorry for being so harsh to you.

within 1month you said 3 times break. i know you don't mean it when you say break because you are angry, but i think no matter what i do or whatever arguement we are having break shouldn't be the word to solve a problem. last saturday we quarrelled again. you said i have been neglecting you.. blablabla. you should know all that. i was so damn tired of quarrelling i eventually thought that would be the end of our rls because u once said if u never meet ur bf for 1week or so ur feeling will fade so i assume your feeling for me is no longer there. at that point of time i really gave up!

we met on monday morning on train. you gave me my present and 1 long letter. when i saw that photo album and the card you had made for me, my heart melt. infact if i use another view to look at you, you are indeed a good gf. you said your friend talk to u and you realise dunno what.. i also forgot what u had said le. anyway the main point is, friends have been helping us in most of our quarrell. in another words, if ur workmate never talk to u are we suppose to end this rls? think about it.

you are a good gf when we are not quarrelling and you are very bad when quarrelling. you tend to shout and scold at me and it makes things even worst. on friday, you are suppose to come to my house after work.. blablabla.. we quarrelled that night. i cup your phone you shout at me i shout at you.. wah~ high sia....

today u asked me if i really fang xin de let you go club not. my answer is YES! i do trust you. basically i think trust is there in our rls.. i think if we are able to control our temper when we are quarrelling i think everything will be ok~ and one more thing!!! i do love irritating you.. muahahha.. not because i wanna quarrell with u it is just tat i know you will entertain me if i irritate you.. thats the reason why i keep irritating you.

just for viewers information, irritate to me is
i call dear dear and ask her what is she doing, why she never pick up my phone when i call her, she so busy no time pick up? or flirting with other guys. blablabla. deardear should know la~
hahaha..

like what i always say, we might be special. we might start off with quarrell but then i believe honeymoon period will come one day.. so promise me not to use break to solve a problem. i can tolerate u saying break. but you never know one day, somehow, we might eventually break off.. so pls, dun ever say break!!!

last but not least, i wanna tell u i have fallen deeper in love with you and i do cherish you, enjoying every single time being with you. iLOVEyou!

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

me and dear dear at mount faber.










Sunday, April 29, 2007

i'm so freaking tired!

today is my last day at work! i finally open up my mouth and tell them i wanna resign. yeah~ though my heart say dun wanna quit, but my mind say yes! must quit.. hahaha.. then in the future i will have more time for studies and dear dear le..

have been quarreling with dear dear recently. she say i have been neglecting her, but the truth is both of us are busy doing our own thing. when i am free, she is working.. when she's free i am working. yestherday i was busy rushing my report till i forgot what time it is. i thought dear dear will come str8 to my place after her work. but in the end, she went back home. but that's not very serious. cause i gotta work today so i thought she can sleep more if she is at her own home. so before going to bed i gave her a call and she is very piss and shouted at me saying why am i working tomorrow. it is as if i never tell her that i am going to be working on saturday. last week she told me she will be having her off day on friday thats why i offer to work on saturday only. but in the end she tell me she had changed her off day from friday to saturday! wth. i can't possibly call up my workplace and say i can't work because i wanna accompany my girlfriend. aiya~ forget it.

today dear dear said she wanna surprise me by coming to my workplace to look for me. but when i told her i fang gong le. her reply was 'ok'. i didnt even know she is coming. if i know i will go and look for her. but after i left she then tell me she is waiting for me and wanted to give me a surprise. i dunno whats going on this few days. this is not the first quarrel we had. ain't first three month suppose to be honeymoon period? why is it so different from others? hai~ i'm so damn tired of quarreling. it's not that i am sick of her or wad. it is just that i am so physically tired and stress about school work, ain't her suppose to give me more love rather then quarrels? who's right who's wrong ain't important to me at all! all i know is that 2 person get together because they are fated to be together. i do cherish this relationship between me and her but if things are going to carry on like this, i dunno wad will happen
你没有想过 我会说分手
也许太习惯 我在你左右
虽然离开你有很多理由
可看见你这样惊讶 也足够

我想得 比你多 陪你一起更寂寞
我性格 比你强 怎样做你的绵羊
我年纪 比你少 不信快乐找不到
抬起头 开了口

最后我比你骄傲 从此不坐你的牢
想不到你的好 记得和你的争吵
想到老可到老 可是和你做不到
如果你爱得比我少 至少我走得比你早


你没有想过 我会说分手
随非以为我 甚么都忍受
就算你这时候 努力挽留
不过是你不能接受 我先走

最后我比你骄傲 从此不坐你的牢
想不到你的好 记得和你的争吵
想到老可到老 可是和你做不到
如果你爱得比我少 幸好我走得还早
轰轰烈烈地开口

Thursday, April 26, 2007

time flies~ weekend is arriving soon!!! LOL.. muhahhaha... this semester module are all so difficult.. and i somehow or rather don't have the mood to study at school.. all i can think of is play and play and play! LOL..


alright taken picture of my new hairstyle.. LOL.. damn short..
yawn~ saturday gonna work.. so boring~ LOL..
ohya~ today is me n dear dear 1 month anniversary.. muhahaha.. time flies.. hope that our love can be sweet forever.. hehe..

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

i did something very extremely stupid today! i went to get a hair cut! damn it sia~ i cut till very very extremely short! *faint*

at first i kinda regretted and kept grumbling/ cursing my friends.. cause actually i never thought of cutting short my hair, i just thought of trimming my hair or just change a new hairstyle. but tmd! the hairstylist say he will cut abit nia.. but in the end the short is 5cm! wth. and his attitude sucks sia.. but afterall, i think cutting short ain't bad la..

another reason why i dun 1 2 cut short is dear dear say she dun like me with short hair! she saw my picture which i had took 1yr ago. when i was in yr 1 she say my hair look so damn ugly.. sad~ but anyway my friend convince me that if she leave me cause of my short hair then she is not a the right one for you. so yeah~ anyway i believe dear dear is not such a person.. muhahaha~ love ya dear~

met my cousin at town.. wahahhaa.. she drove me back home.. if not i need to squeeze mrt le..

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

third day of school! getting so damn tired~ have not been resting well this few days... think i am going to be freaking tired this whole week.. gonna work tmr... omg~ i'm so stupid to work tomorrow... nvm~ next week not gonna work on thursday!

yeah~ in my previous blog, i said i will have a part 2 on listing some point of my workmates... yeah~ here comes the part 2! LOL

charles- he's quite a nice manager, but i feel that he thinks that i'm an idiot.. whatever it is, if he thinks i'm an idiot so be it. i know how lamb and beef looks like. so yeah~ my primary school teacher do teach me tt..

leong- ever since i work, he has been teaching me things that i should know.. a very good manager.. but seldom talk to him cause he has that kind of fierce looking look! much more we won't have common topic to talk about.. but overall, he's a nice guy.

angeline- she's a very nice girl. whenever i dine in at workplace, she would always ask me to drink water... cause she say i smoker, need to drink more water.. she's a person who you can talk and joke around with.. oh ya~ she has sharp ears, she can ear whatever things you are saying.. wahhahahaa.. yeah~ nice person to work with.

arrvine- oh my god~ he ah, i got nothing to say about him! always disturb each other at work.. he's onces say he LOVES to disturb me.. damn evil sia.. but aiya, i'm an angel so i got to forgive him for the things he had done. chao server!

jamelia- she's a very funny girl. LOL.. always joking around with her.. she once told me a lie and i believe her.. yeah~ how innocent can i be. overall, she is also another fun person to work with.

sally- she's a very hardworking girl, whenever i wanna help her serve she will say no need... ask me to rest... she's not like those lazy bums who asked people to do things for them.. yeah~ tt's why i think, the more people want me to help them, the more i won't! but the more they don't want, the more i want to help them.. LOL..

travis- this guy ah... too many BAD things to say about him... i really dunno how to say about him sia.. got things dun dare to tell people str8 at the face... omg~ i really dunno why in this world got such people... aiya, so be it la..

Monday, April 16, 2007

everything have changed. damn sian~ no longer studying with people whom i used to study with last semester.. kinda sad when i get to know this news la.. have been studying together for 1yr in the same lecturer hall, now gonna meet new faces from different course. damn sian~

school suxs sia... this semester lecturers who is teaching us all so guai lan.. so CB! so attitude sia... can't stand them.. so cheehong! i'm so damn tired now.. slept very late last night... gonna rest early tonight.. if not tomorrow sure die de.. after school till gonna work!!! damn it sia... anyway i think after i get my paid, all this worth it la.. can get things i like.

muhahahah

Sunday, April 15, 2007

muhahahha.. have not been blogging for days~ LOL.. busy accompanying deardear and working... so i think blogging is not that important anymore le... but still i will update when i'm free.

basically i think i have spend most of my time working during this semester holiday.. but still if i don't work i will be rotting at home and get bored to death.. so yeah~ working is a right choice afterall.

working is interesting~ during one of my previous blog, i say i shall see some people true colour by time pass.. and indeed it takes a little time to see people true colour.. and i am FCUKING piss by the them..

george- during unpeak period he said " you going home soon right?" so i say yeah~ then he asked me to clean all the calery utensils.. wah~ damn du lan sia... this is not the first time he is ordering me to do things... when we are both runner... i'm always doing things and he will be walking around outside and gei gei talk to manager, ask question and pretend to be hardworking..

narreen- alright she is a very nice lady at times... but she is FCUKING LAZY! she can ask something from you and the things she need is just few steps more to reach and she is so damn lazy to take whatever things she want. i'm not being not helpful... she is damn free.. standing around outside, walking around. i really dunno why there's sure people.

lily- she's a nice girl. when everyone is looking angry and fierce. you will seldom see her with black face or showing you attitude. yeah~ overall she is a fun person to work with.

bryan- GAY, FLIRT, MOLESTER! he is a very idiotic person, always crapping with me. LOL.. yeah~ he's a nice GFM manager.

zack & endon- basically many people say they love ordering people to do this and that.. but ever since i start working till now; maybe they did asked me to do things for them but i didn't really remember cause it is not as serious as those who i first listed in this blog. alright but still endon taught me alot of stuff.. how to pour wine, how to change table liner, how to be a server and stuff... she's a nice and fun girl to work with.

harmony- many people dislike her.. many people loves quarrelling with her... i've nothing to say about her... just feel pity for her.. maybe i've not seen her true colour yet or she is who she is. i dunno~

sharmayne- she's a very blurr girl.. always trying my best to irritate her by my lies... but yeah~ she's karen best friend.. so i think she would be a very good friend to work with... yestherday i did runner with her.. she told me things that really turns me off.. can't imagine even managers are like that. dissapointed. if i were her, i would left the company already

alright~ there sure to be a part two for this! just stay tune ba~

i dun think i'm mean to say all this. but this is how i feel.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

time table for yr2 is out! so damn slack sia the time table.. alright~ for complementary i only know agnes, me and hao we got into the same module and class... the rest all got into other module...

after work today went to had dinner at cafe iguana with dar, arrvine and lily... ate like pig sia,... during work time see people eat so damn tempting... so damn hungry sia... actually only meeting dar to talk but in the end we end up eating.. LOL.. but after dinner, while i'm smoking dar came and we talked about lots of stuff... my problem and her problem... realise she also have the same problem as mine.. woooo~~ so qiao... LOL..

anyway so happy to talk to her.. =D

Sunday, April 08, 2007

WHAT'S BLOG FOR?

ANS: IT'S FOR RUINING FRIENDSHIP!

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

after 2days, i finally get to blog again.

monday

get aboard on bus at 7.30am at jurong and reached genting at 2plus in the afternoon... so overall the journey is less then 6hrs. but if you wanna count the break time and stuff it will be more then 6hrs.. LOL

the first thing we did was to check into our rooms.. the room is so damn dark sia cause if u see outside the window u can see first world tower 1 rooms.. so it is like you can never see light at all... even in the morning..

muhahaha.. when at genting dar message me ask me to enjoy my trip.. feel so happy to have such a good friend like her.. of cos deardear also got msg me la~ hehehe.. miss deardear alot.. hehe

went to watch mr bean, so damn cheap sia 1person RM10 that means convert to sing dollars is $5 nia.. so damn cheap sia.. like what agnes said, at genting you sure very bear to spend money de.. keep spending and spending.. brought presents for my sister, dar and my deardear.. LOL..

at night agnes brought us to an live band pub... no comments for that.. LOL! oh ya~ we saw joseph at genting too! so qiao sia.. he joined us for a drink and then went back to hotel to play cards..

tuesday

suppose to go theme park de but the rain just keep coming non stop.. so in the end we are stuck indoor... so we went shopping around genting.. but after awhile, we went seperate ways... alvin and kelvin went casino, agnes went to get her nails done and i went to call deardear and online at lan shop... so damn sian~

but after agnes finish doing her nails, we all met up for dinner... we always go restaurant eat de leh.. that agnes only eat at restaurant. no fast food no food court.. tai tai sia.. LOL

after diinner went to catch another movie. forest of death... nice show~

went back to hotel to do some packing... after that played cards in the hotel again.. LOL.. it is like we are doing the same thing for 2days... LOL.. say sian also not very sian la... but overall i think it is a very fun trip.. i never went genting with friends.. so yeah~

wednesday

check out at 12pm. went to had breakfast while waiting for the bus. slack around first world hotel, then agnes say wanna go out walk walk... so damn cold sia... sat outside for hours... agnes say she wanna feel the coldness.. LOL.. lame~

reach singapore at about 8plus. send agnes back home.. on the way home agnes said she believes in horoscope... LOL.. i'm so suprise she would admit that she is a flirt!!! LOL.. but i also do admit i am very extremely indecisive.. i can say i wanna do this, but maybe in the end i won't want to do it le... so yeah~ it is not a very good thing.

sentosa trip is canceled. gonna get back to work tomorrow.. arghh... hope tomorrow can make out some time to go look for deardear.. if not i can't see her till friday... miss her so much~

Monday, April 02, 2007

CRY ON MY SHOULDER

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone, you're feeling blue
If you wait for love, and you're alone
If you call your friends, nobody's home

You can run away, but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then Then I'll show you, there's a destiny
The best things in life, they are free

But if you wanna cry: Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
Cry If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

On If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven, where we'll go
My If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I'll make your day Shoulder

When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay by your side
I promise you, I'll never hide

Sunday, April 01, 2007

woke up early today, went to shao mu at bishan.. LOL... there are damn lot of people there sia~ and the place are full of smoke.. see le eyes also pain~ yawn~ so damn tired...

I'M FCUKING UNHAPPY!

so damn moody today.. forget it, if things are going to be like this so be it~ i did tried to salvage it..

tomorrow gonna go genting le, but till now i still havent pack my stuff. i dunno what to bring sia.. LOL.. next week gonna be a fun week... LOL... gonna miss my bed and deardear...

deardear i'm sorry for making u angry... i'm a very harsh person thats why i will say all those thing. baby i'm sorry.. gonna miss you like hell... miss ya deardear
i'm finally back from chalet.. muhahaha~ alright, actually i don't have the mindset of staying over at the chalet.. but when i reach there, richard there all keep asking me to stay over.. then agnes they all also say me.. aiyo~ so in the stayed at chalet... went to OCH in the afternoon... damm erriee.. the front door of OCH is really like haunted show places in movies... LOL..

after that went back to chalet to slack.. then after awhile they started BBQ fire... didnt really eat at all cause i am still having cough.. i dun want to worsen my cough...

oh ya~ wanna thank ya ping for sending the fishball all the way to our chalet.. hmmm~ 大姐你认真好. whahahaha..

went changi village to see ah kua~ wahhahaa... they very chio, but when they talk.. wah~ cannot make it sia... male voice with female body.. LOL.. then we headed to a pub near the jetty.. by then i am kinda very moody cause something happened.. keep drinking and drinking.. and i end up puking~ LOL.. so damn tired after drinking.. knock off after walking back to chalet..

agnes is so kind to order macdonald delivery for all of us.. LOL.. pei si and agnes woke up early so they were talking to damn loud... oh ya~ we all sleep in 1 room, thou we have 4rooms.. wahahaha. we bring all the matress into agnes room. in conclusion we sleep in the same room but not on the same bed! LOL

went to walk walk at changi village, actually wanna go pulau ubin but the sun is freaking big~ so we went to have lunch at subway~ after awhile it started to rain... stuck at subway... by the time we reach chalet, we started fire for BBQ again.. LOL..

check out at 8pm.. shared cab with agnes... damn expensive! i'm declared bankcrupt!