went to look for deardear at her workplace today. accompany her for lunch at far east... LOL.. after lunch headed back home. LOL. on the way home i suddenly feel like blogging. blogging things which i think deardear should know. my feeling towards our rls.

here it goes!

i still remember the first time we chatted, you were very sad.. u just ended your rls with ur ex-bf not long ago.. i never thought we would be together or what at that point of time. anyway thats not the main point of this msg. then one day, we met up at woodland. my first impression of you was you don't look like a typical malay. somehow or rather i find u very interesting so we started to sms and chat on phone.. eventually we met up!

my love for you had grown after our 2nd date. then i'm sure that i have fallen in love with u but i am uncertain about you. i finally speak out and ask you if you do have the same feeling as me or i'm just thinking too much. and your reply really brought me back to love once again. on our 3rd date, i decide to ask you to be my gf but u were late and i waited for you at lot 1 for 3hrs.. damn it! LOL. was worried that u wont be able to turn up. after you reached, we went to jurong entertainment but we were not about to skate due to that stupid competition. so instead we went to imm. had your fav food.. after that blablabla.. you should know la.. =D

our love offically began on 26th march. things are not very good at the beginning of our rls. we started quarrelling in less then a week. at that point of time, i am going to genting too. then things get worsen after i came back from genting. you saw things that u wouldnt want to see. but wadever it is, when i'm at genting, i kept thinking would we really last or we will break up after i return from genting.. at genting, i was thinking whether do you really love me or you're just playing with me. i'm confuse. but after i return back to singapore. you explain every single thing to me, i finally get to know how much love u had put in this rls. but not long after that quarrel, we started quarelling again. and at that point of time, it's dar who helped us to solve the problem.

both of us has bad attitude and won't give in to each other until things are very very worst. during quarrelling i know i had said alot of things that really hurt your heart but deep inside i swear it is angry words only. i am sorry for being so harsh to you.

within 1month you said 3 times break. i know you don't mean it when you say break because you are angry, but i think no matter what i do or whatever arguement we are having break shouldn't be the word to solve a problem. last saturday we quarrelled again. you said i have been neglecting you.. blablabla. you should know all that. i was so damn tired of quarrelling i eventually thought that would be the end of our rls because u once said if u never meet ur bf for 1week or so ur feeling will fade so i assume your feeling for me is no longer there. at that point of time i really gave up!

we met on monday morning on train. you gave me my present and 1 long letter. when i saw that photo album and the card you had made for me, my heart melt. infact if i use another view to look at you, you are indeed a good gf. you said your friend talk to u and you realise dunno what.. i also forgot what u had said le. anyway the main point is, friends have been helping us in most of our quarrell. in another words, if ur workmate never talk to u are we suppose to end this rls? think about it.

you are a good gf when we are not quarrelling and you are very bad when quarrelling. you tend to shout and scold at me and it makes things even worst. on friday, you are suppose to come to my house after work.. blablabla.. we quarrelled that night. i cup your phone you shout at me i shout at you.. wah~ high sia....

today u asked me if i really fang xin de let you go club not. my answer is YES! i do trust you. basically i think trust is there in our rls.. i think if we are able to control our temper when we are quarrelling i think everything will be ok~ and one more thing!!! i do love irritating you.. muahahha.. not because i wanna quarrell with u it is just tat i know you will entertain me if i irritate you.. thats the reason why i keep irritating you.

just for viewers information, irritate to me is
i call dear dear and ask her what is she doing, why she never pick up my phone when i call her, she so busy no time pick up? or flirting with other guys. blablabla. deardear should know la~
hahaha..

like what i always say, we might be special. we might start off with quarrell but then i believe honeymoon period will come one day.. so promise me not to use break to solve a problem. i can tolerate u saying break. but you never know one day, somehow, we might eventually break off.. so pls, dun ever say break!!!

last but not least, i wanna tell u i have fallen deeper in love with you and i do cherish you, enjoying every single time being with you. iLOVEyou!